it's actually something i would like to do myself the first time. not because i dont want anyone to go with me, but i know that if someone i know is there i won't say everything that i want to say...if i say anything at all. it's hard to explain. ask sylvan...he understands me more than anyone really. he knows what it's like to put on a "happy face" and make everyone think all is well...when it's not.

thanks for the hugs