what the PHUQ have i done to deserve this???

ok so last night we were going to have a nice little supper with rotisserie chicken from costco. i took mom to costco and got the chicken and some sammin YUMMY which was only 8 bux for almost 2 pounds!!!!

anyway...

so we get back into Joey and get ready to leave, but OH NOOOOO someone else has something in mind for US!!!! so the transmission slipped and let's just say FREAKED THE SHYTE OUT OF ME and didn't do much good for my mom.

this kinda crap is the reason i tried to kill myself in the first place.

so...long story short...it's going to cost me almost 3000 bux to have joey fixed. she needs a new tranny. and not one that i can get from rocky flashbacks!!! so...here goes...

DOES ANYONE HERE HAVE 3,000 DOLLARS I CAN BORROW ON A POSSIBLE NON RETURN BASIS??? i mean i'll try my hardest to get it paid back...i just dont have the money right now and i need my car. at this point...it looks like i'll be going to baycon and hopefully getting so SHIT FACED that everything will be numb and i wont have to worry for a few days 'cos i wont be able to feel anything. and again i say to myself...WHY DIDN'T IT WORK???? if it had worked back in september then i wouldn't have to deal with this SHIT!!!!

Break Stuff - Limp Bizkit

It's just one of those days
When ya don't wanna wake up
Everything is fucked, everybody sucks.

You really don't know why
But you wanna justify rippin someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker!

It's just one of those days!
It's all about the he said she said bullshit.
I think you better quit lettin shit slip
Or you'll be leavin with a fat lip
It's all about the he said she said bullshit
I think you better quit talkin that shit

It's just one of those days
Feelin like a freight train
First one to complain
Leaves with a blood stain

Damn right I'm a maniac
You better watch your back
Cuz I'm fuckin up your program
And if you're stuck up
You just lucked up,
Next in line to get fucked up
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker!

It's just one of those days!
It's all about the he said she said bullshit.
I think you better quit lettin shit slip
Or you'll be leavin with a fat lip
It's all about the he said she said bullshit
I think you better quit talkin that shit
So come and get it

I feel like shit.
My suggestion is to keep your distance
Cuz right now I'm dangerous

We've all felt like shit
And been treated like shit
All those motherfuckers who want to step up

I hope ya know I pack a chainsaw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps going this way
I just might break sumthin tonight

Give me something to break!
It's all about the he said she said bullshit.
I think you better quit lettin shit slip
Or you'll be leavin with a fat lip
It's all about the he said she said bullshit
I think you better quit talkin that shit
So come and get it

and while we're on the lyrics train

Enema - Tool
Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will.
I sure could use a vacation from this
Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of
Freaks
Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time. Any fucking day.
Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay.
Fret for your figure and
Fret for your latte and
Fret for your lawsuit and
Fret for your hairpiece and
Fret for your prozac and
Fret for your pilot and
Fret for your contract and
Fret for your car.
It's a
Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of
Freaks
Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time. Any fucking day.
Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay.
Some say a comet will fall from the sky.
Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves.
Followed by faultlines that cannot sit still.
Followed by millions of dumbfounded dipshits.
Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will cuz
I sure could use a vacation from this
Silly shit, stupid shit...
One great big festering neon distraction,
I've a suggestion to keep you all occupied.
Learn to swim.
Mom's gonna fix it all soon.
Mom's comin' round to put it back the way it ought to be.
Learn to swim.
Fuck L Ron Hubbard and
Fuck all his clones.
Fuck all those gun-toting
Hip gangster wannabes.
Learn to swim.
Fuck retro anything.
Fuck your tattoos.
Fuck all you junkies and
Fuck your short memory.
Learn to swim.
Fuck smiley glad-hands
With hidden agendas.
Fuck these dysfunctional,
Insecure actresses.
Learn to swim.
Cuz I'm praying for rain
And I'm praying for tidal waves
I wanna see the ground give way.
I wanna watch it all go down.
Mom please flush it all away.
I wanna watch it go right in and down.
I wanna watch it go right in.
Watch you flush it all away.
Time to bring it down again.
Don't just call me pessimist.
Try and read between the lines.
I can't imagine why you wouldn't
Welcome any change, my friend.
I wanna see it all come down.