something to think about

( Pink Floyd's: Goodbye Blue Sky Lyrics )

so my life has been filled with thinking lately. i think that i might have thought myself to ( insanity. )

i have thought about how i can be a better friend, a better sister, a better daughter, a better roomie, a better co-worker, etc. what i haven't thought about is how i can be a better person. how do i change what i've become. how can i become someone i'm not.

i have decided that after work every other day, i'm going to go to a bookstore that has a coffee shop ('cos i know there's one or two around here) and get myself a book and a cup of coffee and read. it's about time i change what i've become. i'm really good at pretending that i'm happy when people see me in real life. what i'm not good at is making myself believe that i'm happy. so i need to ( make that change. )

now's the time i need to tear down the walls.