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i need to say this right now (open post)
May. 14th, 2009 12:04 pmlast year, baycon sucked. i dont ever want to go through that again. so i am putting this list of things i would like up for your perusal. please...pay attention to the words....
i want to not be invisible this year
when i'm getting everyone else ready to go out and play, i want someone to take time to make *me* look pretty also.
i dont want to be the red-headed step child that can't go to the ball.
i dont want to be the one who is left alone to get meals. having someone with me would be really nice. last year i was alone for all but 2 meals. that made me feel like serious shit.
again...let me make clear...if i'm helping *you* get ready, i think you should make the effort to help *me* get ready.
tell me i look beautiful.
tell me i smell nice.
tell me you love me/care about me/ like me even just the smallest compliment would make me smile.
if i look like i'm about to cry...hug me and tell me it's ok.
show some compassion.
remember that i have feelings.
remember that i have very few friends and those friends have more friends than i ever will.
remember that last year i was feeling like a shut-in and never wanted to come to baycon again.
hopefully...you'll see this list and remember these things during the weekend. i dont want to go through the same thing i did last year. 20 years of friendship is a lot to lose. i dont think i can survive heartbreak like that again.
i want to not be invisible this year
when i'm getting everyone else ready to go out and play, i want someone to take time to make *me* look pretty also.
i dont want to be the red-headed step child that can't go to the ball.
i dont want to be the one who is left alone to get meals. having someone with me would be really nice. last year i was alone for all but 2 meals. that made me feel like serious shit.
again...let me make clear...if i'm helping *you* get ready, i think you should make the effort to help *me* get ready.
tell me i look beautiful.
tell me i smell nice.
tell me you love me/care about me/ like me even just the smallest compliment would make me smile.
if i look like i'm about to cry...hug me and tell me it's ok.
show some compassion.
remember that i have feelings.
remember that i have very few friends and those friends have more friends than i ever will.
remember that last year i was feeling like a shut-in and never wanted to come to baycon again.
hopefully...you'll see this list and remember these things during the weekend. i dont want to go through the same thing i did last year. 20 years of friendship is a lot to lose. i dont think i can survive heartbreak like that again.
