lokizmom | wherein J9 divulges her thoughts...

today was better. not 100% but at least better. someone completely understands me and that made me cry myself to sleep last night and awake this morning. knowing that someone gets it...makes all the emotions well up inside me and explode all at once. i wish he would let me repost the comments he made so that everyone can see what i can't explain.

tomorrow i start another job. i'll be going back to the accounting firm to do more file making and moving.

today i went to the dollar store and got some light-weight balls to toss around. i'm going to learn how to spin. i'm making my own poi out of the balls and we'll see how well i do. if it'll keep my brain working on something then i know i'll be ok. at least i'll have something to focus on.

the power was out for about 30 minutes or so tonight. i'm not staying online too late 'cos i dont want it to go out again. maybe i'll do some reading.